three hundred and fourty two

Now that you're gone, you're out of range,
my feelings for you haven't changed.

Don't think I'll ever get over this. I wish I was as good at pretending as you.

This way I could fake a smile and act like I dont need you too =C

I don't know why we all hang onto something, we know we're better off letting go.

It's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have. Some of us say we'd

rather have that something than nothing at all, but th truth is to have it halfway

is harder than not having it at all.

Did I mention that when I see you it stings like hell, to know the fact that we could

have something. You will never forget your first love. That's what makes it so

special. You love so hard, so deeply, and so intensely because you don’t know

any different. It's th best until it is over. Then you hurt like you've never been

hurt before. Eventually you love again, but you love differently. You will love

more carefully and more cautiously, continually comparing that person to your

first love. I still miss you everyday, boyfriend <3333.

Well, I hate my feeling now ! Th same things remained on my mind and Im

stuck like hell. I've lost my freedoms once Im in love with you. I know

we're both struggling in this relationship, but I feel suffocated if you tied me

too tight. I need air to breathe baby.

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I desperately want to buy th hoodie in Paul Frank. Aawwww. Can anyone donate

me money? I thinkfeel daddie will buy me one if his mood is in good

condition. I know just for one hoodie that costs about RM329.90 don't worth

anything at all but but but......................sigh, I want it badly (: